A Different Focus

I guess I hadn't posted since last week. Oops. I did keep doing the Shred DVD for 5 days. I wasn't as sore after the 3rd day of it. I guess the first 2 days were the most difficult. I wasn't feeling well on Friday, but did it anyway. Well, this sinus/sore throat thing got the best of me, so I didn't feel well enough this weekend. That's OK. It's this thing called life. It happens. I'm not throwing in the towel....just had to take a little detour. ;)

Today I am feeling much better, but my focus is elsewhere. It's still a focus on a healthier me, just a different part of my health. Tomorrow I go in for my colonoscopy. I am supposed to have them regularly, but realized it had many years since my last one. I was having many problems, so they got me set up for one. Today has been a day of drinking that nasty stuff they make you drink for the prep. Yuck. The plan was to drink half of it tonight and then I'm supposed to drink the other half in the morning, since my procedure isn't until afternoon. I couldn't get in my last glass for today I was gagging. Hopefully it's enough. I've been on clear liquids all day and will be up until 4 hours before my colonoscopy tomorrow. I'm hungry!! I'm sure everything will go fine. They always have precancerous polyps they have to remove. Hopefully there won't be too many this time.

I know it's all in God's hands and He will take good care of me. He always does!

Once this is all "behind" me (no pun intended), I can focus back on my weight loss journey of healthiness. I'd like to thank everyone for their kind words, thoughts, and prayers! I'm a very blessed woman. :)

Day 1 of 30 Day Shred

Well, I did it. I did the first day of the dvd. I think Jillian Michaels may be out to kill me. LOL! Wow...I am seriously out of shape. You know it's bad when you are just out of breath from doing the warm-up. I kept thinking, "Are you kidding me? This is just the warm-up? Will I be able to do this?" I pushed through and did it. It wasn't pretty, but it's done. On this dvd there are 3 different levels. Once you are able to conquer one level you move on to the next. I have a feeling I will be at Level 1 for awhile.

Now I am sore. I guess it's a good kind of sore though. That is what we try to tell ourselves at least, right? I had to go upstairs earlier and with each step I said, "Ouch, ouch, ouch!" I'm pitiful. Now I'm just tired. I think it will be an earlier bedtime for me tonight right after a long hot soak in the tub.

Oh....I did great with my eating and drinking my water today. I think over half of my water consumption was done during the exercising! All that I keep thinking about at this moment is, "Will I be able to do this again tomorrow? How can a body this sore actually be able to move in the morning to do any type of exercise?" Hopefully I'll wake up and feel refreshed and ready to go again. I can do this....I can do this...I can do this. Must keep repeating that until I believe it! :)

Mindset

Today I'm focusing on getting into the right mindset. A mindset that I CAN do this and I WILL do this. I'm actually getting excited about getting started. I haven't felt this way for awhile. It feels good.

Water....must drink more water. It's more difficult for me to do this in the winter when it's so cold out, because I like my water ice cold. I guess I need to drink some hot tea to substitute some of that.

I did some yoga stretching today. It wasn't a strenuous workout, but more something to help get my focus in the right area. My day #1 starts tomorrow after the kids head off to school. Maybe I should pretend that I'm on the Biggest Loser ranch and have to exercise all day. I guess nothing else would get done though. Where is Jillian when I need her? Oh yeah...she'll be on that Shred DVD I'm starting tomorrow. ;)

I'm trying to come up with some healthy family meal options that my kids will eat. If anyone has any suggestions I'd love to hear them. I'll be sure to let you know if we try something good. I want to get to the store to make sure I have fruits/veggies, and other good stuff to choose from when I get hungry.

On another website I'm on I found this and thought it was fitting: "As your body needs nourishment - food, drink, sleep, so does your soul need nourishment - sing, dance, love. Life is not all work, work is not all hard toil. Nourish your soul with the food that is right for it, for it is the altar of your own inner temple."

Contemplating change

Today I decided to create this blog to show my journey throughout this year. So much has happened over the past decade, which has caused my health to decline. There are many things I don't have any control over. However, there are still areas I can control, but just gave up on over the years. I am now making the choice to change the things I can.

This first must start with my weight. I am now the heaviest I have ever been my entire life (yes...even at 9 months pregnant). I can sit here and blame it on the different meds they've put me on for my different health problems, but it really doesn't matter. The point is....it needs to come off. I'm tired, depressed, and miserable being this heavy. Maybe I should post my weight for accountability reasons, but embarrassment keeps me from that. Once I start losing the weight I might be able to tell you. ;) I'll be sure to take before pictures for entertainment purposes. LOL! I've lost the weight before and been to my goal weight. Surely...I can do it again!

I bought the Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred DVD. My plan is to start this on Monday when the kids return back to school. Today I am focusing on my eating and drinking lots of water. So far...so good.